but then I got myself together and cracked on with it.
Can you talk me through the inspiration behind your dishes? Did you like the brief?
I absolutely hated it.
You're the only person to have said that actually.
Everybody gives you the bullshit don't they. I love music. I love listening to music, but I know fuck all about it.
My interests are cooking and my family and I listen to music as something to do.
So initially I was like: 'This is a nightmare' because just getting a connection is the main thing. You can know a million songs in the world. And I just wanted to turn up like I imagine a lot of people would've done and just say: "this is my favourite song and this is my favourite dish so I'm just gonna stick a song over the top and cook some random food", but I was trying to look into it a little bit deeper than that.
I struggled at first because I knew the reason why my dishes fitted the brief, and you never really know when you when you get to the show or when you get to recording how your veteran judge is going to take it. So you might have a judge who really only cares about the cooking quality of ingredients, like Phil Howard did the first time I did it.
I almost was happy to go out first on the Thursday if it meant that everybody saw how I cooked - if I went out because it didn't fit the brief then I wouldn't have been that bothered.
It was it was difficult at first but then I got my head around it and realised that you can't get away without any kind of props or visual direction, so I did some cards to try and get it across.
I might have just been railroading myself a little bit more because I turned up to do my food and not diverge from that. When I did it couple of years ago I'd have cooked anything as long as it fit the brief and tasted nice.
When you entered the competition which of your dishes did you hope to take to the banquet?
My beef hash starter. I was massively keen on that getting through because that's one dish that felt like a bit of a signature. I wanted it to make an impact and I think it did.
Would you take part in GBM again?
I don't think so, no. It's a time and a place thing. I actually went back to them this time; they were really keen after the first time to do it again because Tommy (Banks) was coming back but on the back of doing it the first time I was taking over the restaurant here, so I didn't have the time or the patience.
But I've been doing this for two years now, it's been mine and my food. So I've settled down, I know where I'm at, so it just felt right to to go back and have another crack at it.
Image:Top, left to right: Andi Oliver, Matthew Fort. Bottom, left to right: Oliver Peyton, Amy MacDonald
In this day and age with chefs it's almost like you need your profile to be out there; it's a tough gig now being a chef, it's not just about cooking. You've got to be on TV as well.
I felt like it was the right thing to do but I can't see myself doing it again.
I told them that I wanted to go back as a judge after the first time and then I had to go back and compete, so I really want to go back as a judge now.
The first time I did it and I got to the banquet it was brilliant and amazing but it was in a different context. This time I wanted to turn up - without putting myself on a pedestal, because I don't think I'm at this level - like a Nathan Outlaw or Simon Rogan would turn up. They'd cook their food uncompromisingly and that's the way I wanted to approach it this time.
What was it like to be back on GBM?
