sent emails to every two and three Michelin Starred kitchen in existence within Manhattan. Dozens of emails turned into three offers for stages, which turned into a week-long stage at Aquavit under Marcus Samuelson. From what had been nothing but a glossy cookery book in my hands in a tiny village in Scotland, became me standing in the Aquavit kitchen working alongside the man himself. I won’t lie; New York City was pretty intimidating.

I flew there by myself, booked my own hotel and didn’t plan anything other than my Aquavit stage. I had no idea how to use the subway, get food for myself or even how to confidently order a coffee. The experience was terrifying, and a lot to take in at once. Somehow, I survived the week, and flew back home. The flight home was a mental struggle. On one hand, I was certain that I couldn’t return to New York; it was too much for someone like me to handle, expensive, foreign, threatening, and the prospect of being so far away from everything I knew seemed too much.
But, what was it I was really afraid of? And what was my alternative? By the time I picked up my luggage at baggage claim, I knew that Scotland had taught me all it could and that I had to follow my ambitions by returning to New York City and finishing what I had started. When home, I wrote a letter to Gordon Ramsay himself asking for a job, and my stage at The Connaught in London, I received an opportunity to be part of the opening team for Gordon Ramsay at the London NYC. I never asked any of the usual silly job-questions like “When do I start?” or “How much does it pay?”
None of it seemed to matter – I was going to live in New York City and work for Gordon Ramsay. They could have offered to pay me in monkey nut shells and I would have agreed just as eagerly. This was it.